Letters of Love, Confession, Pain, Hope and Redemption
We all go through that process of falling hopelessly in love, and then getting hurt. We grieve for the lost love, we cry for the false hopes, we cry foul for the endless pain, but through it all, we find serenity, we find peace and an affinity for love that can never be equaled.
These letters, composed in the most dire of situations, are summations of all these – falling hopelessly in love, crashing and burning in pain, and rising above the catastrophic affair. As a disclaimer, these letters may sound addressed to someone specifically but it is just purely intended as a work of fiction. Enjoy reading!
A Letter To the One I Used to Love:
Hey pretty, it’s been quite some time since we’ve conversed on a personal level, sans the pretensions that preclude us from interacting on a more intimate manner. Pity it had to end the way it ended. I guess I have nothing to lose in composing this simple narrative.
To start with, I want to apologize for all the things that I did which might have offended you. I know I can be extremely obnoxious but know that most of the things I’ve said and done were without malice. I need not elaborate but I want you to know how much I’ve regretted my actions. If only I could turn back the tides of time but no, that is quite impossible. Besides, what’s already been done can no longer be undone. The only thing we can do is to face up to the consequences of our actions. That is why this very moment, I am asking for your forgiveness on all my past sins.
Albeit I regret my subsequent actions, please know that I have never for once regretted falling in love with you. Falling in love is definitely one of the most exquisite feelings one can ever have. Having you by my side was more than enough to make me skip a heartbeat, more than enough to take in a deep breath of air. You made my heart flutter, especially with that discreet smile you flash in the most harried times. Then there were those moments which no words can describe, just you and me. Darn, I will treasure those! Beyond these things, I am really grateful to you for making me feel feel something that I have rarely felt.
There were just so many things, simple ones and delightful ones that made me fall so hard for you. You are so beautifully perfect in your distinct imperfection. You may not know it or people may not always tell it to you but you are one amazing human being. Any man would be honored to have you. But me, I had to give up at the first instance of defeat because my old fears started creeping in, that and the prejudices that were already made. The harsh reality I guess is that I just cannot muster the courage to take that final leap of faith, of fully embracing the precepts of love and everything it entails. I hereby apologize for my cowardice.
Be that as it may, I have nothing but well wishes for you. From the depths of my heart, I wish you all the happiness that life can offer. I wish you nothing but success in all your endeavors and in every facet of life and of love. Go on, spread your wings, be that person you’ve been raring to be. Soar. Soar high and know that beneath those wings, I will always be there, no matter what. Go for your heart’s desires. I will just be behind you, a friend, a comrade, someone you can lean on, someone you can rely on. Always know that I will always be here for you.
I hope you find someone who will listen to you when you start talking endlessly; someone who will wipe those tears with his bare hands when they start falling profusely from your eyes; someone who will make you laugh nonchalantly even in your darkest moments; someone who will bathe you with the attention and love you the way you very well deserve; someone who will lie with you on the grass and just stare at the skies, enamored in the beauty and the simplicity of the stars twinkling on the mirthless night; someone who will make you see beyond what love is and what it can do; someone who can make you so drunk in love the consequences are just left at the back of your mind because you want to stay in that moment, forever; and someone who will hug and comfort you when all you feel like doing is screaming, crying and just being lost on the rain. Most of all, I wish you someone who can take that leap of faith that at the very last moment, I was reluctant to do.
Please know that I will always love you and a part of you will always be a part of me, nothing can change that nor take away what you really meant to me. The mind might have the ability to deny and block things that it doesn’t want but the heart will never cease to love and beat in spite of the pain, because the heart has the infinite ability to keep on loving, caring and sharing. I may have to distance myself from all of these to protect myself and shed the pain, but know, that should the need arise, I will always be there. I can be the shoulder you can cry on, I will lend you the ear that many deny you, and I will lift you up should you stumble. I will always care, no longer as a lover, but as a friend.
I guess I have said too much. Sorry, but there were just too many things that I wanted to say, but I just never could. There were too many things that could never be explained in words, or even in actions, just the way I fell for you. But to close this rather lengthy narrative, I really wish that the lords of the universe conspire to give you all the best in life and in love because you deserve nothing but the best. Never even for a second worry about me because I can fend for myself. I have been through this before. I have survived. I can definitely survive this one. This is just nothing but another broken heart after all.
~ The Hopeless Romantic Confessing His Lost Love and Lost Hopes